Immigration

My Name is Sayuri and I am Undocumented

Published January 31, 2009 @ 05:00AM PT

Please welcome guest poster Sayuri.

Like vines on a Baobab tree, my story and that of the United States have always been intertwined. Young children brought here by hopeful parents who want nothing more but to give their children what they never had growing up, but always dreamt of: Freedom, Opportunities and a chance at a great life through determination and hard work.

My story, that of brilliant young minds who, after high school, find the gates of higher education, the workforce and the basic American dream shut in their faces because they either crossed a border or overstayed a visa, has already been lived and told by thousands before me. There isn't a day when my undocumented status doesn't interfere with my daily life. And, although I can't take my 3 year old daughter to her ballet classes or my one year old son to his doctors appointments, without my husband in the driver's seat, I still choose to see the cup as half empty.

There are many out there who don't know a thing about us.

In fact, they couldn't pick out any of us in a line-up. But, out of fear or other untold, sinister motives, they see me and other undocumented students as pests bent on taking over and impoverishing "their" country. There are people who dare question my children's citizenship, people who misconstrue my parents motives (and their ancestors in the process) in bringing me here. To be honest, I only think of these people on days when, for a short while at least, I let myself wallow in self pity. Because in no way should I ever let what these oblivious people (I like to give them the benefit of the doubt:) think of me and of my presence in this country affect who I am. In the past year, I've come to realize that those who accuse us of hiding behind our children while we plot to take over this country by impoverishment and taking from their kids' plates are in fact the ones who hide behind slogans like "illegal aliens" and use messages of hate to spread vicious lies and debunked myths against us and the Dream Act. Their days are spent crying wolf on forums, carefully crafting fear mongering campaigns, leaving messages of hate under articles that portray us in a positive light, and their favorite, rigging online votes and polls to back it all up. We dreamers aren't asking for your money, government handouts or freebies we haven't earned. We want you to see the human in us and our parents. We are people with universal rights that don't depend on which side of the world we were born in; people whose judgments should based on characters and not residency. We are asking for the RIGHT to be accepted as America's children, because at the end of the day, she already is our home.

My parents have been in the USA for 20 years. Since then, they have gone from selling shirts on the streets, working in factories to starting businesses both here and abroad, giving Americans and others jobs, bettering their communities, homeownership, raising four proud Americans and passing down their love, their dedication and undying support of this country to us.

What more do you want from us? What more should we do, how much more of ourselves do we have to give to be accepted as Americans in your eyes.

Ah! yes, "the" pay fines, pay back taxes -we don't owe, then go back home to that non-existing line and wait for our turn, yeah? Well you'd be surprised that we did, my father has been waiting for his green card for over 10 years, yes, for him, that line has only produced one temporary residency letter after another. My mother, whose petitioning sister, my aunt Serafina is a U.S. Citizen, well she has been waiting for an approval letter that never came. My husband's uncles, aunts, grandparents and cousins are all U.S. Citizens, but because of loopholes in a system that keeps on failing millions each year, he can't become legal until his father (a doctor) and mother (a stylist) leave everything behind and move to the U.S. or if he leaves me and marries for convenience.

Unafraid, unabashed and still the firmest of believers in the possibilities America promised, I wait...

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Comments (23)

  1. Dave Bennion

    Thank you for sharing your story, Sayuri.  I hope that better times are ahead.

    Posted by Dave Bennion on 01/31/2009 @ 07:45PM PT

  2. Rahul K

    I woke up this morning thinking with bitterness about the blatant discrimation which hides behind the words "Alien". The lines being drawn are only too familiar and path we are going down already illustrated by scores of countries.
    Then I read your post. It is hard to keep that belief alive...something that deserves respect. You have my best wishes and my thanks for helping keep the dream alive. 

    Posted by Rahul K on 02/01/2009 @ 06:23AM PT

  3. J Ceballos

    If true history were taught in public school, many people would change their minds in how they view immigration. I am a Native American Indian.  I went to school on a reservation, and in regular public schools.  Only on the reservation did we even learn of how the "illegal immigrant white people from England" had come here and "civilized our country"  all the while murdering our men, raping our women, and mutilating our children. But never the less, teaching us the true way to live as Christians.  Now we are the aliens of our own country.  Don't get me wrong, the past is the past, and I am a Christian, but how Christopher Columbus "discovered America" and this land was colonized was no greater an achievement in my book than planting a flag and moving in my back yard.  My husband is from Mexico and we are waiting for him to become a citizen as well.  But even if this so called nation has forgotten I still remember and I know that God is in control.  I'm hopeful for change, and I'm excited that our president is the son of an immigrant.  Amnesty is OK for me there are more important things than money and the white man drew the border anyway!  Ha ha!  I love everyone, but I pray for all of you in the same type circumstances as me and my husband.  Remember, God hears and answers prayers!!!! 

    Posted by J Ceballos on 02/01/2009 @ 04:54PM PT

  4. E F

    "White people from England", huh? I didn't realize  Cristóbal Colón (aka Christopher Columbus) was an Englishman?

    Posted by E F on 02/01/2009 @ 08:39PM PT

  5. Wire Paladin

    The word 'alien' is all over the text of the DREAM Act.

    Posted by Wire Paladin on 02/02/2009 @ 07:37PM PT

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  7. Mara :)

    That was truly inspiring.

    Posted by Mara :) on 02/01/2009 @ 05:16PM PT

  8. "Because in no way should I ever let what these oblivious people...think of me and of my presence in this country affect who I am."

    I appreciate your courage and dignity in the face of the "oblivious" ones, Sayuri.  I truly feel sorry for the nativists.  Just imagine the kind of upbringing they must have had to be so unfeeling towards their fellow human beings.  You are right: they don't know you.  Most likely, they see you as a symbol for something they are afraid of in themselves - something "alien" that they project on to others.  The sad thing is that we have become, in a way, alien to ourselves in the process…Our nation has lost its place in the world's esteem because of the attitudes and actions condoned by the nativists.  The United States was once seen as a beacon of freedom, compassion and refuge by people all over the world.  But now, it seems that we prefer to torture people, terrorize them and throw them into these Gulag-style detention centers. When we start treating the people who look to us for refuge in this fashion, it makes you wonder what really separates us from repressive regimes in other parts of the world. What happens to the soul of a nation when it loses its ideals and the humanity at its heart? 

    Thank you for sharing your story, Sayuri.  Just keep in mind that the mean mutterings of the restrictionists are just their own reflection in a dark mirror.  For the rest of us, you are a heroine for conducting your life with dignity. And for your daily struggles, dreams and aspirations that make you every bit as American as any one of us.

    Posted by a d on 02/01/2009 @ 06:57PM PT

  9. Janeth Herrera

    Sayuri, you are the voice that needs to be heard to the millions that are blind and ignorant. I don't know how many times i read stories as similar as yours, but they all have a great impact on me. And with that it feeds the fuel of my passion to fight harder to help you, my aunts, my cousins, my friends and my class mates.
    Thank you, so much, for your story

    Posted by Janeth Herrera on 02/01/2009 @ 08:43PM PT

  10. E F

    That was another valid question Dave.

    Posted by E F on 02/01/2009 @ 09:46PM PT

  11. Wire Paladin

    Family unification is an important part of our immigration tradition, and new immigrants are commonly sponsored by well-established family members who are residents of the US.  And I support that concept - as long as it is kept within quotas.
    However, there is the situation where a foreign mother arrives in the US, and soon thereafter gives birth to a child, and through the loophole of birth citizenship policies, the child becomes an American citizenship and the mother then has the ability to make a claim for US permanent residency based on family re-unification.  I consider this to be fraud and an abuse of our generous immigration laws.

    Posted by Wire Paladin on 02/02/2009 @ 09:08PM PT

  12. Dave Bennion

    "After 21 years," you neglected to say.  Or "never" if the parent entered across the border.

    21 years.  Small detail.

    Posted by Dave Bennion on 02/02/2009 @ 09:16PM PT

  13. Wire Paladin

    "protection from deportation" I neglected to say.  After 21 years, the child can sponsor the mom, but the protection from deportation -  that's immediate.  But you tell me, dave.

    Posted by Wire Paladin on 02/02/2009 @ 09:57PM PT

  14. Wire Paladin

    Or then you have the Hamdi delimna.  A person born of Saudi temporary worker, yet raised in the Middle East.  Talk about a 'sleeper cell'.  And how do you try such a person?  Do you afford him the rights of an American citizen?  Does his crime then become treason?

    Better to not even go there.  Better to join with all the  other modern liberal democracies and modify our citizenship by birth policy.

    Posted by Wire Paladin on 02/02/2009 @ 11:14PM PT

  15. Dave Bennion

    "After 21 years, the child can sponsor the mom, but the protection from deportation -  that's immediate"

    Wrong again.  No protection from deportation--none--until the parent has lived 10 years in the U.S., and then protection in the form of "cancellation of removal" only in cases of "exceptional and extremely unusual hardship" to the child or another US citizen or LPR immediate family member (not simply "normal" hardship that would result from deportation), granted in a minority of cases in the discretion of the judge.

    And I'm guessing from your Hamdi example that you would have supported Japanese-American internment--first and second-generation potentially 'treasonous' immigrants in time of war ... let me guess, you were on the waiting list for Malkin's book ...

    Posted by Dave Bennion on 02/03/2009 @ 05:04AM PT

  16. J Ceballos

    I don't know where Christopher Columbus was from and quite frankly I don't care.  All I know is that when his boat ran aground by accident and he thought he was in India, he was definately an alien to the natives already here.  And besides, this nation was formed by greed.  If there hadn't been and "gold in them thar hills" no one would be here. Do you know why there are two Cherokee reservations?  Do you know why one is in NC and one is in OK?   It's because of a historical event called the trail of tears.  It was ordered by the "government" that a state could not be errected within a state, thus the Indian people were forced to walk from NC to OK, burying their dead along the way.  So was this constituonal? In my book, seperating families is nothing less.  Yes, I understand that there are some who use the system to their advantage, but what about the people who just want to live happily with their families in peace without the worry that they might be in jail before they make it home for dinner?
    I personally think it is alot of racism.  Especially for Mexican people.  They are our closest relative.  Long ago there was no border.   Can you believe that someone had the odasity to ask my mother if she had papers?  She's full Cherokee!  So I guess we will be OK as long as we stay on the reservation where my husband wont stick out.  I guess I know how it must have felt during the holocaust.

    Posted by J Ceballos on 02/03/2009 @ 10:06AM PT

  17. Kurt Thialfad

    I would be interesting to do a DNA analysis between the Cherokee tribe and the Mayan and Aztec tribes.  Off hand, they would comes across as very different groups: the Mayan-Aztecs as a tropical people, and the Cherokee from a temperate climate, and dense forest environment.  it's almost like comparing the Germans and the Egyptians.

    We all need to show our 'papers' at many times in our lives and every April 15th, I can't understand why this would be offensive to your mother?  Please explain.

    Posted by Kurt Thialfad on 02/03/2009 @ 10:44AM PT

  18. E F

    "he was definately an alien to the natives already here.  And besides, this nation was formed by greed.  If there hadn't been and "gold in them thar hills" no one would be here."

    Yeah, um....just a little FYI. Columbus didn't land in North America.

    Indians are not the original inhabitants of the Americas.

    And as for the gold...cotton, tobacco, spice, lumber, and rum were here LONG before the gold rush.

    Posted by E F on 02/04/2009 @ 12:14AM PT

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  20. Wire Paladin

    Thanks for clearing this up regarding the 'protection from deportation'.  So I guess I still want to know if deporting a mother with a US-born child under 10 years old, is a violation of the family unification principal?

    And I'm guessing from your Hamdi example that you would have supported Japanese-American internment--first and second-generation potentially 'treasonous' immigrants in time of war ... let me guess, you were on the waiting list for Malkin's book ...

    I'm surprised to hear your comments about internment in WWII, and whether or not I would have supported it.  I don't know as it was before my time, and I don't know whether my parents supported it - they probably did.  Roosevelt was pretty popular, and the Japanese did attack the US.  Roosevelt was a liberal democrat, so perhaps he was under tremendous pressure from the warmonger wing.  The Republicans? - no they were the isolationists - the anti-war wing in this case.  I generally don't try to second-guess my ancestors - what would I do in their shoes - and would I have done any better.  Was Lincoln wrong in invading the South?  Was the Emancipation Proclamation a sham because it only freed slaves in the rebellious States and not in the Union slave States of Maryland, Kentucky, and Missouri. Was the 14 Amendment a mistake since it was passed with the former rebellious states excluded from participating in the vote.  Regardless, perhaps the internment would have been harsher under a different president.  We know internment was definitely a harsher experience in Europe.  We don't know whether or not Japanese internment was a bad or a good strategy.  We do know, however, that the US won the war and the victors do write the history books.

    As far as Malkin's new book - what's the title?  

    Posted by Wire Paladin on 02/03/2009 @ 10:06AM PT

  21. Dave Bennion

    "I guess I still want to know if deporting a mother with a US-born child under 10 years old, is a violation of the family unification principal?"

    It's not the age of the child but the length of time the parent has spent in the U.S.  As far as a 'family unification principle,' it is recognized under international human rights law but alone provides no defense against deportation in the U.S.  In short, there is no "family unification principle" as such recognized under U.S. immigration law in removal proceedings. 

    Perhaps I was intemperate in accusing you of supporting internment.  The principles though between Hamdi and WWII internment are similar--once you break the link between soil and citizenship, you call into question the status of every second-generation immigrant, then their kids, too, and so on and so on.  Where does it stop?  The U.S. doesn't have the kind of long national/cultural history that France, Italy, Germany, etc. had--one great source of national pride for the U.S. is the idea of nationhood based on ideals rather than ethnic/cultural group.  I think to a large extent it's a pseudo history, but I do think it's a better model than the European one.  But exactly because Americans cling so tightly to the idea of a universalist U.S., they will never get rid of jus soli citizenship.

    But it doesn't sound like you have much of a problem with internment after all.  Might I suggest that if your parents/grandparents had been in the camps, you'd feel differently.  Just as a thought exercise. 

    "We don't know whether or not Japanese internment was a bad or a good strategy."

    We know it was a morally flawed strategy that resulted in U.S. citizens being locked up by the government for no reason other than their ethnicity.  Most Americans think that's wrong.  Here's Malkin's book, which I can't help but think she'll regret writing someday, if she doesn't already. http://www.amazon.com/Defense-Internment-Round-Up-Americas-Terror/dp/0895260514
    What's next, "In Defense of Auschwitz" ... "In Defense of Slavery"?  

    "We do know, however, that the US won the war and the victors do write the history books."

    This assumes that the Japanese-Americans who were interned were not part of the victorious side--i.e. that they were not Americans.  Even the ones with kids in the U.S. military at the time.  So what were they? 

    Posted by Dave Bennion on 02/03/2009 @ 05:59PM PT

  22. Wire Paladin

    Wow, there's a lot of stuff here.  I can only respond selectively.
    Your ideas about nationhood are interesting, in that somehow the US is different.  I don't think the US is any different.  One has to define what nationhood is. I believe it is common language, common history, and common culture.  As far as age, consider the US has had one constitution lasting 230 years, while France, for example, has had 5 constitutions during the same period.  Which is the older nation?
    I want to comment on this "jus soli" citizenship.  Now this was included as a provision of the 14th Amendment, passed in 1868, without the participation of the southern states - because when they had included the souther states it failed.  Now, in those 140 years, don't you think there were certain groups of people who were not unconditionally and automatically granted American citizenship based on birth?  Certain people of Chinese extraction, perhaps.  There were definitely 2 groups of people who were traditionally  denied unconditional and automatic jus soli citizenship.  If you don't know who they are, I will be happy to tell you.  And the wording of the citizenship clause of the 14th amendment does not necessarily impart unconditional and automatic jus soli citizenship, even though the current interpretation seems to lean that way.  I believe the interpretation should change to be more in line with that of other modern liberal democracies.  I do not believe this requires a constitutional amendment.
    True, my parents and grandparents were not in camps, but other relatives and ancestors of mine were.  Relatives and ancestors of mine suffered horribly for their culture, for their religion, for their nationality.  Yours?

    Posted by Wire Paladin on 02/03/2009 @ 08:14PM PT

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  24. J Ceballos

    Oh yeah,  Then who was the original inhabitants?  I know it's all a bunch of junk in the history books.  AKA the "thanksgiving story"  My mom is Cherokee Indian and my father is 3rd generation American from Germany, so it's not like I hate white people or anything.  All I'm saying is that it's bull!  Most Indian people live on reservations now just to avoid the discriminations.  Most Indians are mistaken for Mexicans where I'm from (that's why I find it offensive that she was asked for papers.  It wouldn't happen if she were white though).  And it's just not fair! My husband is from Mexico, but it doesn't matter to me, racially I feel we are the same.  No matter whether it's Azteca, Cherokee, Navajo, Kiowa, Lakota, Kickapoo, Catawba, Seminole, Creek, Comanchee, Apachee, whatever.  Geneticly all theese groups including some Asian's are grouped as Mongaloids in genetics.  I think without too much debate it is true that we were here first, unless you want to bring up the debate about whether or not people walked across the frozen ice during the ice age from Asia.  So in that case, where did human life originate?  Who's to say it didn't start here.  Or everywhere simultaniously.  Do you want to go deeper?  Did we evolve or were we created?  If you believe in creation then didn't God make all of us equal?  So then if that is true why should we fight over tempral things.  I think life is way too short for me to have to wait for "papers" for my husband when we are not even promised tomorrow.  So for me money is only cotton fibers based on gold.  Which both come from the Earth, and to me neither one are more important than human life.  I feel like I am trapped under this country's idea that money is power.  If I had all the money in the world, I would burn it and work for free to help everyone out of LOVE. 

    Posted by J Ceballos on 02/05/2009 @ 07:34AM PT

  25. Tanya P

    I am also going through the exact same thing. I am attending a California State University at the moment and will soon graduate. I will not be able to to work or persuade my dreams because I am undocumented. I am married to a US citizen who works for a defense contractor of this country. Neither one of us have criminal records, we pay taxes, we own a house, I have excellent grades, I don't drive, we have never taken a penny from the government and yet I feel like I am treated as the worse criminal ever. I am facing a horrible ban that would punish me for life with the opportunity to apply for a waiver in 10 years to be able to come back to this country. That means my US citizen husband will also have to abandon his own country to be with me until we can apply for a waiver. Is this even fair? We don't know what to do but wait and hope for a change.

    Posted by Tanya P on 02/09/2009 @ 03:47PM PT

  26. Sayuri Jane

    Thank you all for reading. Regardless, if you agree with giving green cards to those who are here doing the right thing by working, taking care of their families and abiding by the laws or even ifyou think that we should all be rounded up, tortured and shipped to other shores, one thing we can all agree on is that something needs to be done now. Immigration reform needs to happen.

    Posted by Sayuri Jane on 03/20/2009 @ 07:36AM PT

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