My Name Is Isabel and I am Undocumented
Published January 23, 2009 @ 05:00AM PT
I've come to realize that life is merely a succession of decisions made during precarious moments that alter life in its present form in ways that are inconceivable when those decisions are made. In my life, one of those moments took place in the summer of 1992. I was 5 years old when a decision was made for me that permanently changed the course of my life. My parents made the decision to try their luck in the US, the land of opportunity. My mom received a visa and we crossed at the El Paso-Juarez border on a balmy July night with my US citizen aunt. I was woken up and told to pretend to be asleep when we got inside a little building. My mom presented her visa and my aunt presented her naturalization papers. She held me in her arms while also presenting her daughter's US birth certificate. My dad came at a later date, having been sponsored by a different aunt.
It would have been nice to have had a say in the process that uprooted my entire life.
The simple fact that my aunt committed fraud by presenting me as her daughter means a lifetime ban from the only country I have ever known. If I'm ever forced to leave, I will never be able to return. While I always knew that I was illegal, I never understood the ramifications. I grew up naively thinking that if I worked hard and proved to everyone how amazing I was, someone would smile down on me and forgive the transgressions of my parents, as well-intentioned as they were, and my life would be happy from that point on. All my teachers encouraged me in this idealistic thinking because they never knew how the odds were stacked against me. I had assimilated so well, no one would have ever guessed that I was an immigrant, let alone an illegal one.
I worked so hard that in 8th grade I was among a select few that took the SAT as part of a gifted program in my middle school. I did well enough to qualify to attend Cranbrook, a private prep school with a sticker price of nearly $35,000 a year. I researched the school and fell in love with its buildings and the promise of a challenging education. This was one of the very first times when I realized that my undocumented status proved to be a scarlet letter of sorts when it came to my education. There was no way my family could afford the costs up front and there was no way I could apply for any financial aid from the school without a SSN. I was incredibly disappointed because I knew I had the merit to attend a school of that caliber and I had the work ethic necessary to succeed. The only thing that was holding me back was my lack of papers.
Fortunately for me, in addition to my merit and my work ethic, I also have a strong will to succeed. When I graduated high school in 2006, I left with about $22,000 in scholarships and deep gratitude for the teachers who believed in me and helped me along the way. Although I didn't make it to Cranbrook, I did make it to college. I'm currently double majoring in Accountancy and Spanish with minors in General Business and Economics in a public university in Michigan. I spend most my time going to school, volunteering for a couple student organizations, and working to improve my 3.9 GPA. I hope to graduate in 9 semesters in April of 2011.
I also hope that the DREAM Act passes by the time I graduate. I've made my decision to take my CPA examination because my dream is to be an accountant in one of the big 4 accounting firms. I would like to set a good example for my little sister as well as my little cousins; I will be the first in my family to graduate from a university in the US. Another decision that I've made is to eventually pursue my MBA at Harvard Business School. I refuse to have others make any more decisions on my life. My mother and I have a U-visa application pending with USCIS, but it will probably take over a year to adjudicate our application. My best chance lies with the passage of the DREAM Act.
My sincere hope for the future is that other students like me have the opportunity to succeed in their respective lives because their success is a net benefit to the country that they grew up in and flourished in. It's rather easy to complain about the fact that we're here; it is harder to offer realistic solutions. As a future accountant, it pains me to read the simplistic nativistic idea of "go home and use your degree there" because the US invested in my K-12 education, much like a person invests in a business, and I feel like I should contribute back via taxes. Students like me are an investment - human and intellectual assets - not a liability. It's stupid to invest in a business and not expect a dividend, yet this is exactly the issue with my fellow Dreamies and I. We don't want a handout, just an opportunity to prove our collective merit and work ethic through either higher education or military service.
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Lacking a SSN is definitely like carrying a "scarlet letter." Good luck pursuing your dreams.
Posted by Jae H on 01/23/2009 @ 06:27AM PT
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Your mom and aunt should be arrested and thrown the book at. These are not victimless crime. The additional strain placed on American educational resources; the American student who loses his place to accommodate you; the loss by your native country of such a talented individual. You have well described the awful ravages of 'brain drain'.
Posted by Kurt Thialfad on 01/23/2009 @ 07:01AM PT
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you are a very mean person
Posted by Fabiola Jacome on 01/24/2009 @ 11:50PM PT
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dude, why would you ever say that!
Posted by Sherley Cordova on 01/25/2009 @ 08:04PM PT
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Kurt, not only are you a jerk, but are you actually that clueless to not understand from a a human compassion level why people cross the border over and over again risking their lives to get into this country and afford their children a better life? I guarantee that if you were faced with the living conditions of many Mexican immigrants, that you too would break the law for the sake of your family's survival.
Not only that, but unless you are indigenous to this continent, you too are the result of immigration and afforded the privilege to be an American only because of an indigenous genocide that was perpetrated upon the original people of this land. YOU should be grateful that you exist here in this country as an American by sheer luck of birth, and how dare you argue that another immigrant has no right to strive for a better life when you, like most of us in this country, are able to be here only because it was stolen from it's original inhabitants to begin with.
Get off your high horse. There is enough room and resources in the whole world to care for all human beings. When will people like you understand that when others are suffering, we all suffer..simple as that. You, like so many others, function from a place of fear & lack. It's very sad.
Posted by Lisa Miller on 09/24/2009 @ 06:02PM PT
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Lisa, you're an idiot.
Posted by Kurt Thialfad on 09/24/2009 @ 09:07PM PT
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Kurt why are you always behaving like this?... like i dont get you dude... colleges across the country are lacking on filling the student gaps. Since many high school students graduate and never go to college. some just drop out. theres this state i think its Alabama, im not really sure... it had a drop out rate of 75%... if you want to do well in school, its only up to YOU... oh i forgot, blame the immigrants for that too. The whole county doesnt have the education it used to have... Come on man ive been all over the country, from Florida to Texas, to Georgia and South Carolina.. all ritch snobby kids that for them mommy and daddy are always gona be there even IF they dont do well in shcool... some of us dont have a mommy and daddy... education is the most beautiful thing in the world. educated people are informed better in life.
Posted by Alex Shqipe on 01/23/2009 @ 07:26AM PT
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I agree that education is the most beautiful thing in the world. It is in being educated that you are fully able to give back to the world, and if colleges want to fill their student gaps they should lower their tuition...like Alex said, most of us don't have rich mommies and daddies, and it's hard to pay for college.
I hope that you can find a way to stay in America, Isabel. It's so sad to read stories like yours, and I'm hoping the DREAM Act gets passed.
Posted by Lashawn Chillious on 01/23/2009 @ 08:08AM PT
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It is not your fault that you were put in this predicament and I can't imagine what that would be like, this is your home and this is where your dreams take place but illegal would be immigrants can't be encouraged by the people before them being able to so easily fly under the radar. This is a controversy that, much like the issue of abortion, will never be settled. There is no comfortable middle ground. There are pros and cons to both sides of this particular issue, I do wish you the best and that you are able to obtain your papers and your dreams but know that there is a purpose for you life and wherever God wants you is where He will put you. God bless and thanks for sharing your story.
Posted by Berlyn Hoyt on 01/23/2009 @ 10:24AM PT
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"Your mom and aunt should be arrested and thrown the book at."
Kurt, the reason why I feel comfortable sharing my story is that we have a case pending for a U-visa. Just to let you know, a U-visa catagory was created under the VAWA - the Violence Against Women Act. My mother came here legally and because of the abuse we suffered, it was also part of the reason why she overstayed her visa. We weren't allowed to leave. As far as my aunt, there is no evidence of her crime, so nothing is going to happen to her. Get over it.
"The additional strain placed on American educational resources; the American student who loses his place to accommodate you;"
I pay for my school with scholarships given to me. My 16,000 private scholarship is for being on the Dean's List every semester. I earned it just like another other student who receives the same scholarship. That scholarship can't be given to someone who didn't earn it, citizen or not. Any other amount, my parents pay. Not a single dime comes from the government. Not a penny.
And curiously, none of my classes are filled to capacity. If there's extra chairs in the room, clearly I'm not taking anyone's spot. And even if I did, they should have worked as hard as me. And if they didn't make it, then they don't have the intelligence or the drive. Other people's shortcomings are not my problem.
"the loss by your native country of such a talented individual."
Thank you, Kurt. I strive to be the best that I can be given my temporary circumstances. However, what you fail to see (and maybe you didn't read my last paragraph) is that another country's loss is the United State's gain. In a time when India graduates 28 engineers for every 1 American engineer, the US needs all the brain power it can get. When China is busy building universities and the US is floundering in teaching math and science skills, that is when we need increased brain here at home. That is why we have visas for educated foreigners and why people such as Bill Gates advocate for increases to those visas. DREAM Act beneficiaries have the added benefit of culture: we grew up here, we know the customs, we know the history. DREAM Act students and future military leaders are a gain. A net plus, if you will. Which is why when talk about "the awful ravages of 'brain drain', " I can respond by letting you know that students like me are untapped resources against this "brain drain" that is happening here.
Let's face it: not every American goes to college. Likewise, not every undocumented student has the opportunity to go to college. However, how can you turn away students like me who sincerely want the best for this country because they love this country as much as you do. Think about that Kurt. How can you say no to those that want to educate themselves. It's rather hypocritical to want the best for American and yet turn away students like me who want to help the US be the best country int the world and to get the economy back on track.
Posted by Isabel Reyes on 01/23/2009 @ 11:56AM PT
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i would like to ask you a question about some urgent matters that i would feel more at ease asking with out the idiotic and narrow minded people such as kurt. I have a very similar story as you please get back to me as soon as you can
Posted by Luis Alvarado on 01/25/2009 @ 11:39PM PT
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Isabel;I'd like to learn more about this VAWA - the Violence Against Women Act. What sort of abuse did you and your mother suffer?Peace.
Posted by Kurt Thialfad on 01/23/2009 @ 02:08PM PT
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I freaking love you! I am an undocumented student with a 3.93 GPA and my dream is to go to med-school however med-schools do not accept undocumented students. All I want to do is save people's lives but I might never get the chance to...
I completely understand you, it's stupid. I was 5 years old as well when my parents made the decision for me and now I have to live my life like this. I can't live a normal 18year-old life. I cant drive, I cant go to R rated movies, I cant do anything because I have no ID. But the worst is I am barely getting through college I can't get loans so even though I am a 3.93 GPA student I might not be able to finish college or for that matter go to med-school which has been my life-long dream.
Posted by Javier N on 01/23/2009 @ 04:24PM PT
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Thank you for sharing your story, Isabel. I wish you luck in your case.
Here is a good summary of the VAWA self-petition process for battered spouses and children of US citizens or permanent residents: http://www.womenslaw.org/laws_state_type.php?id=10270&state_code=US&open_id=10837
The U Visa petition is a separate process for victims of crimes inside the U.S., and requires certification by a law enforcement agency investigating or prosecuting the crime. The best summary of the requirements for this petition is probably found in the USCIS instructions to the petition, especially the first page (pdf): http://www.uscis.gov/files/form/I-918instr.pdf
Neither process is particularly easy, as anyone who's been through one of them can attest to. Most people would be shocked to know the kinds of things that go on when abusers know their victims have no legal status and live in fear of being deported.
Posted by Dave Bennion on 01/23/2009 @ 07:32PM PT
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Isabel, ignore the haters. keep your head up and keep fighting the good fight. Dream will pass!!!
Posted by Sayuri Jane on 01/24/2009 @ 02:33PM PT
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Hey Kurt keep in mind that this is America, the most driven and intelligent will succeed in this country. How dare you attempt to accuse her that she is the reason that American students are losing their place in the education system. Look don't blame foreigners for being able to compete and succeed the intellectuality of many Americans. Face it the only Americans that are losing their places as you say are the ones who are extremely lazy and depend on the government to baby them throughout their lifetime, I am almost appalled as to how much assistance is given to American citizens who do not wish to pursue post secondary education, but instead live a life of miniscule importance and no ambition. Competition is inevitable and it weeds out the "weak", blame lethargic American students not driven individuals you fool.
Posted by Carlos Jimenez on 01/24/2009 @ 04:57PM PT
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You are the future of our country. We need you - your talents, your skills, your passion. You have something to contribute and you CAN make a difference - this goes for all the dreamers. So please continue your education.
Recently, I read an inspiring article about an undocumented student who became a neurosurgeon: Dr. Alfredo Quinones-Hinojosa. At the age of 19, he hopped a border fence from Mexico into the United States. He started out as a migrant farmworker and a painter. But he worked hard, taking night courses and studying English in his spare time. He eventually got a scholarship to attend U.C. Berkeley. After CAL (my alma mater), he went on to Harvard Medical School and eventually joined the staff at Johns Hopkins School of Medicine as a neurosurgeon. He has won numerous awards for his research into the role of stem cells in brain tumors. But just imagine if he had been apprehended before he could obtain his citizenship - what a loss to this country!
So please, if you can, ignore the haters…they are a dying breed. You are intelligent and you are going to go far, Isabel. So I hope you continue to believe in yourself. You have something important to offer this country. We need people like you, so I am glad you are here. As Barack Obama has said, the dreamers who came here as children ARE Americans in every way, except for a piece of paper. You are one of us! So, we want to be sure that you and other dreamers have chance to contribute your talents to this country. That's why we need to work as hard as we can to pass the Dream Act. Si, se puede!!
Posted by a d on 01/24/2009 @ 07:15PM PT
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I guess I'm confused, isabel. First you say: "My parents made the decision to try their luck in the US, the land of opportunity....My dad came at a later date, having been sponsored by a different aunt."
And then when I try to get more information from you, you come up with this "VAWA - the Violence Against Women Act. My mother came here legally and because of the abuse we suffered,"
I think your story is shallow, and you are doing a very good creative writing job.
Posted by Kurt Thialfad on 01/25/2009 @ 09:14PM PT
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Thought you were genuinely interested in her situation, Kurt. Thought I detected a glimmer of empathy. I won't make that mistake again.
Going after victims of DV ... that's pretty low.
Posted by Dave Bennion on 01/25/2009 @ 10:16PM PT
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Sayuri Jane and Lisa Pelletier, thank you very much for your kind words. The haters don't faze me for it simply means that I have something that they don't.
Dave, thank you for you support and good thoughts. Also, I am sorry you have to put up with the ignorance of others on your portion of this site. It must be exhausting having to scrub the posts from their verbal diarrhea.
Kurt, thank you for the compliments you include in all your posts to me. Many people have complimented me on my research papers and essays in addition to my creative works and prose.
Rather than discussing the benefits of the DREAM Act and keeping it courteous, instead your personally attack me and judge me like no other. I hope you realize that people who are neutral to the DREAM Act read posts such as mine and then compare them to posts such as yours and the differences in tone and humanity are astounding.
Kurt, it's almost as if people like your purposely aim to be irritants. It doesn't bother me in the slightest that you post your vile comments to my story. If anything, it lends more credibility to my argument that I am an asset to this country. Your lack of initiative in finding out more about the VAWA is evident. If you wanted to know more about it, you should have done research on your own time instead of relying on me or Dave to find sources for you. You have all the time in the world to find "faults" in my story; I have classes to attend and excel in. The onus is on you.
To be clear, the purpose of my story was to illuminate to others that there are students like me who aren't living up to their full potential because of events and decisions that they were not part of. The remedy to this tragedy is passage of the DREAM Act. It's a win-win situation for both the US and future beneficiaries.
Lastly Kurt, the fact that you to deride my life and my experiences within it as "shallow" says more about you than it does about me. My mother, my brother, and I qualify for a U-visa on a few grounds. Let me tell you some of the things that I have lived through:
PHYSICAL
* My father whipping my little brother with an electrical cord. He was 5 years old.
* My father refusing to take me to the hospital for a fractured arm. I spent 3 days without treatment. I was 9 years old.
* My father knocking down my mom with my newborn sister in her arms. She was about 6 months old and I was 13.
* My father slamming a car door on my mother's legs. I was 14.
* My father choking my mom long enough to render her unconscious for hours. I was 7 years old.
* My father punching my mom so hard in the face when she tried to leave. He hit her so hard that he actually loosen a few of her teeth. This incident also left her with bruised ribs and her face incredibly swollen. I was an eyewitness to this when was 9 years old.
MENTAL/EMOTIONAL
* My mother, my brother, and I lived in a women's shelter for about a month and a half when we escaped after the aforementioned incident.
* While my mother was pregnant with a different baby sister, he was carrying on an affair with a lady from his job. My mother later gave birth to my baby sister. She was still born.
* My father didn't believe in contraception. After my first baby sister's birth, my mother got pregnant twice. She miscarried both time. My father hit her through out those pregnancies.
* My mother was later diagnosed with lupus. My father didn't care.
* My father had enough money to buy the woman he was having an affair with jewelery, but he never had enough money to help my brother when he wanted to play football with the other kids.
* When I wanted to join the Girl Scouts and again when I wanted to learn how to play the violin, my father tore up my applications because he felt that I would never amount to anything. It was more useful to learn how to be a housewife.
Kurt, I could go on and on. This was my life. I wouldn't wish this on my enemy. Contrary to what you and my father believe, I am worthy enough to call the US my home. I am worthy enough to get an education. I have proved myself over and over again. Kurt, you may think my life is "shallow" and that all I'm doing is taking up space, but I respectfully disagree. I am accomplishing my dreams with or without your approval. If you are not here to help me, then please get out of my way.
Posted by Isabel Reyes on 01/26/2009 @ 05:02PM PT
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Isabel; Thank you for sharing the details of your abuse by your father, even though it may be difficult for you to talk about. Is his type of behavior common in your country? Believe me, I am nothing like this creep.
Posted by Kurt Thialfad on 01/27/2009 @ 12:18PM PT
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Really Kurt, "is this type of behaviour common in your country?" As if to imply that this is something unheard of in the US and only other 'third world savages' are capable of such a thing?
You are a class act!
Posted by Mo A on 01/27/2009 @ 04:35PM PT
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Isabel I hope God helps you and to the rest of immigrant students in this country.Like Lil Wayne says in one of his songs "how do you feel, b**ch I feel undefeated" repeat that everytime to your self wen you feel down.Music works charms wen I feel down and hopeless.
Posted by Didier Jimenez on 01/26/2009 @ 10:20PM PT
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Hello Isabel,
I have a very similar story to yours. I am, considered by the laws and definitions of the U.S., an "illegal" immigrant. I attend to a University in Texas, I am majoring in Business (accounting) and I am also aspiring to make a postitive effect on this country. I really hope that the Dream Act passes so that not only you, but thousands of students get a chance to prove themselves of their capabilities to make this a better country. President Obama supports the Dream Act and as he mentioned will pass it "immediately."
Here is the link to those who have not seen the video when President Obama speaks about the Dream Act
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_GwNVo7siFA&feature=channel_page
P.S. Kurt is a butthurt bastard
Posted by Erik Jasso on 01/27/2009 @ 03:18AM PT
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Isabel, although you are the age to be my sister or my best friend i see a lot of my mothers characteristics in you and some of mine as well. I too came to the U.S illegally at a young age (1ish) but i was lucky enough that my father worked along César Estrada Chávez and we were able to get our green cards later on in life.
From what i understand (from past comments) that Kurt has left, it seems his bitterness toward undocumented people is that they have accomplished more then any average students he has encounter, thus it is "unfair" to his eyes to let any of them get any financial aid when maybe his accomplishments don't get him that sort of reward that he has the privilege to apply for. Those sort of people i feel extremely sad and sorry for, because they do not understand what its like to be deprived of the things you desperately need, they only know how to be selfish.
As for the Dream Act, i too hope it passes thru, because even though i could get financial aid my cousin, my best friends, my classmates, all smart, gifted individuals like your self deserve and need it.
And i for one will fight as long as i can to make it pass.
Posted by Janeth Herrera on 01/27/2009 @ 08:02PM PT
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great post Isabel. You are a hero to the Dreamer community. Thank you for sharing your story.
Posted by Piash Anon on 01/28/2009 @ 11:24PM PT
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I am so glad you shared your story. I was happy to read about such a strong willed person faced with such adversity. As a Dreamie, it has brought me great comfort. Thanks!
Posted by Mara :) on 01/30/2009 @ 05:37PM PT
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Thanks for your story ....i feel stronger now .
Posted by darla Jean on 01/30/2009 @ 06:28PM PT
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Isabel; You are a class act.
Posted by Kurt Thialfad on 02/25/2009 @ 11:47AM PT
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Thank you for sharing your story. You honesty have guts to put yourself out there like that.
I was brought here when i was 2 and i still haven't decided whether or not i should apply for a community college or i should wait. I'm 20 and i haven't been to school for almost 2 years and you can say I'm jealous in knowing that either all my friends are currently in school or won't even give it a try.
If the DREAM act passes this will be one more step closer to fullfilling all our dreams!!
Fingers cross for everyone undocumented and as for me as well. :)
Posted by Karen C. on 03/30/2009 @ 04:17PM PT
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